People are fake cowards. And they are going to BE fake cowards no matter what. There's no way to change someone's personality. And there's no way to hide your true personality. By trying to do so, you only appear even more fake. It's a vicious circle.
I am done with guys and heartbreak and hookups and dating and the whole "Oh my god, I like you," "Oh my god I like you too!!" shit that isn't even real. College is going to be mindblowing, but I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. After my Starbucks adventure today, I realized that all the bad things I was able to avoid in high school are going to be much more difficult to avoid in college. Which will skew my judgment and possibly put me in a detrimental state with boys. Most of my problems and concerns seem to revolve around boys. And I think this is because they are the one steady thing that I am never able to handle. The one thing that I always seem to have trouble with. Yet I can't eliminate them, because they're so DAMN amazing during the good times. Even though I always say I'll never do it again during the bad times, how could I NOT?! God, I need help.
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