Random Observation #1

People like to be liked--this usually leads to disastrous self-destructive tactics that stupid people employ to make people like them. Doing things you know you will regret, saying things you know shouldn't be said, even changing who you are completely. And for what? To be liked. Even for the smallest amount of time. Especially for the smallest amount of time. Sure, I've been guilty of it myself. I can't count the number of times I've gone farther than I would like to have, doing something I know I shouldn't. Actually, I can count them. On one hand. But still, there shouldn't be ANY instances. We should learn to love our values--why else would we have them in the first place? They've obviously kept us from harming ourselves before. Why would we just toss them out the window the moment someone wants us to change? Because that's what we think it takes. Does it make any sense? Not at all. We shouldn't have to look back on the past & regret making some stupid decision when we KNEW it was stupid when we were doing it.
Ahh high school. How crazed it makes us all. We follow the "ringleaders" only to be mislead down dark, treacherous paths. Isn't this the time to express yourself? To find who you really are? If so, shouldn't we be spending our valuable adolescence defining ourselves & befriending people who have the same desires? Some might argue that that is precisely what they are doing: finding friends with the same interests. But I beg to differ. I'm going to be the one to push the envelope & say that we're all scared shitless. If you remember your friends in freshman year, you can see how much they have changed. There might have been one person who was sure of what they wanted, and hasn't strayed from that idea. But in general, people look for confidence & reassurance and attach themselves to its coattails. They follow that sense of well-being through hell & back. Not really following their own ideals, is it? We're scared of what others will think of us. We're afraid of what might happen if anything changes. We put up with the torture from that one powerful person because, honestly, we're afraid of what our lives would be without them. And that my friends, is high school.