Admittedly,

Today was a shit day. S'il vous plait, excusez mon francais. Started off well, I was excited to go to church today, but after service was over, it all started to go downhill. When my mom found out that I wanted to see Alex today, she pretty much denied it from the get-go. Which was the first thing that upset me. And you know how after you get really upset once, every little thing that goes wrong just tears you apart? Yeahh, that's what happened today. After what happened, I couldn't even talk to people the same way. Yes, I realize it's a little over-dramatic, and yes, I realize I'm PMSing. But hey, it's my nature. So I spent the better half of my afternoon in my room, knitting and watching movies (I'm a freak, I know). Until my mom finally realized that something was seriously wrong; around 6 she came in & asked if I wanted to invite Alex to see a movie. By that time, I was sure he'd already made other plans. I mean, it's Alex. He can't stay in one place for too long. In fact, I knew that he was busy before I even asked him to go. Yet for some reason, I was still crushed when he confirmed that he couldn't. Why? I wouldn't be able to explain. Again, PMSing. So it was whatever. Shook it off, blasted some Lady Gaga, drove to the movies with Mommy Terrell and Trenton en route. We saw Blind Side. Probably one of the best movies I've seen in a while. I don't know, there was just something about it that hit me. Made me laugh, made me cry. It was incredible. Now I'm home and freezing cold. And I need to say something that's been on my mind all day:
I think for the first time I'm starting to realize that this is work. That I can't just wait around for everything to happen for me, I actually have to do something if I want to get what I want. And that "something" involves more that me just moping around when I don't get what I want. I'm learning that, but it's hard to apply it when necessary. It's hard to realize that what we're doing is just stupid, when in retrospect it's so easily discovered. It's especially hard for me to admit when I'm wrong. Maybe it's a pride thing? I don't really know. But I know that today I was just wrong. I had the wrong attitude, held grudges at the wrong people, and just went about everything all wrong. And I know that now. So I apologize to the people I was upset with (even though they probably won't see this) because I know that life's too short to be angry about stupid stuff. I know that I should appreciate the time I can spend with the people I can spend it with. And I hope that I can realize when I'm wrong, because I make my own life so much harder when I'm not able to admit that.
Well, here's to hoping tomorrow is a better day<3

No superstars of the day today.