Getting closer to adulthood is both exhilarating and frightening. I have a long 5 months to go, but I can't help thinking about it as my closest friends reach this milestone. Now, I have a little control. Less, if I think about it. I have to answer to two different authorities, one who isn't even present. It's easier to get around, but of course my guilt makes it impossible. If I'm with him when I know I shouldn't be, the anxiety builds up in my stomach because of my incapability to lie. Which always results in me getting in trouble.
I feel like I'm rambling and not making any sense.
In that case, he's frustrating me. But then he does something to make up for it. And then it starts all over again. And I don't know why I'm frustrated. Well, yes I do. But I don't want that to be the reason.
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