So I was on MySpace, and i see all these status comments about couples & how they love each other soo much and all that good stuff, and it makes me wonder: when am I gonna find a decent boy to feel like that with? All my friends are with these great guys that would do anything to make them happy. And here I am, proclamining my boyfree summer.
Could it possibly be because I'm so fed up with being treated like shit by guys that I know are just going to end up breaking my heart in the first place? Most likely. Is it too much to ask for a cute boy who isn't only thinking about hooking up? I want something long-term with someone who adores me for who I am. Someone who will come over with chicken noodle soup when I'm not feeling well, someone who will just stay on the phone with me for hours at night and text me first thing in the morning because they missed me, someone I won't be nervous to introduce to my family. I want someone who will love me unconditionally without repercussions, someone who calls me baby and means it with all his heart. I thought I had that once, but I guess I was wrong.
Now I've just become the girl that guys come to when they want some instant gratification. Some sweet talk. I don't want to be that girl anymore.
song of the day:
"I Do Not Hook-Up" by Kelly Clarkson
i like the "someone I won't be nervous to introduce to my family" part :)
ReplyDeletehahahah yeahh i thought that needed to be included :)
ReplyDeletethis whole thing is just my "boy venting session"
i should start that weekly, maybe some of my angst will come out...
i love how your song is "i do not hookup" we had a nice convo about that on the leukimia walk day
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